longing for camille

wouldn't it be nice to be able to walk into a gallery and purchase art like this?  i suppose i need to start playing the lottery again.

                                     

perception and sleep deprivation

i often suffer from insomnia.  i have had this affliction since i was very young, and my mom told me i used to lay in my bed as a little girl and sing all night long.  she would actually tell my babysitter to not let me nap under any circumstances because it would generally lead to a long night of sitcom opening melodies being crooned into the night from my bedroom.  i don't sing anymore, but rather i lay there with this impending feeling of the day to come that is actually becoming 2 or 3 days strung together, and sometimes even a week or more.  i lay there and worry about a multitude of things which may, or may not be of any real importance were i not so focused on the fact that i am not falling asleep.  funny how as adults we handle things like not sleeping in such a different way than we did when we were children.  once our grey matter becomes evolved into it's adult form something changes for the worse, and i wonder if there is a way to ever regain that pure sense of carefree nature that defines being a kid.  unfortunately, i think that along with the adult responsibilities of paying off credit card debt and cars and student loans and mortgages that we may very well just lose that blithe sense forever.