Tuesday, December 15, 2009

wrong side of the bed

*sigh*  it's just "one of those days".  you  know the kind where absofuckinglutely nothing goes right??  i can't decide if i should just go back to bed, or break something to make myself feel better.  it's only 10:30am.  i feel like diving face first through a 13th story plate glass window, and forgetting that today ever existed.  i feel like tearing my hair out strand by strand until there is nothing left.  i feel like crying.  i try so hard to stay positive, but it's really hard not to be affected by the persistent negative outside influences which surround me.  it's even harder not to feel like everybody is against you when you wake up to a shitstorm of negativity, and disappointing news.  i have a huge day tomorrow, and i've got to get out of this funk before i go to bed tonight.  i have 12 hours to turn sad into happy.  i think i'll go see fantastic mr. fox.



 

Monday, December 7, 2009

where does the time go??

ok, so i know when i started this blog that i promised myself i would be more diligent about posting, but life has gotten a bit hectic for me as of late.  i knew that i would be busy when i started school, but i kind of forgot to take into account that i still have a business to run, a part-time job, as well as a household to manage.  i have to admit that my time management skills were seriously lacking purely based on the fact that i really didn't have much of a set schedule for the past 2 years, but over the past few weeks i have made leaps and bounds towards being able to finish everything i need to within a reasonable time period.  for the 2 years that i've lived in tucson i've kind of floated about and whatever happened sort of just happened at a somewhat leisurely pace.  however, having a new set schedule has been tremendously good for my self-discipline, and it has made a really positive impact upon my self-esteem and mood.  i definitely feel more focused and goal-oriented which i realize now is so very important to my general well-being.  now if only each day could stretch into 26 hours instead of 24 everything would be perfect!


and speaking of school, it is going great!  cutting hair is definitely the highlight of the program which is the reason why i think most of us are there in the first place.  all the other extraneous stuff i could probably do without, but it's pretty fun learning about skin and makeup as well.  in my younger days i was such a minimalist when it came to makeup that somehow i made it into my 30's without really even knowing how to apply eyeshadow.  it's actually fun to be über girly and get all dolled up once in awhile!  back to the hair though, i really wish i had done this years ago.  who knows where i'd be now if i had gone through this program when i was 25.  i have a few hairstylist friends who are incredibly successful, and even though they are at least a couple years older than me i can't help but think about how long the road to my success may or may not be.  i suppose only time will tell, and i think that i certainly have the ambition and passion it takes to become successful.  think big!


one of my all-time favorite artists, mark ryden, just release a new micro portfolio of "the snow yak show".  these micro portfolios are generally limited editions and sell out relatively quickly.  they are such  a steal at $12.95 that i recommend buying more than one and making some bucks on them down the road on ebay.  you may have to hold onto them for a couple years, but eventually they'll pay off.



oh, and just an update on the C25K.  i made it to the end, and it sure felt good to be able to run for 30 minutes straight for the first time in my life.  the strength of my knees has actually improved through the program, but since they do get a bit sore on the longer running stints i have tweaked my workouts since officially completing the program.  i am still going to the gym three days a week, but i now do my stretching and 5-minute warm-up then i run for 10-minutes, walk briskly for 3-minutes, and then run again for 10-minutes.  at this point i will do all my weight lifting exercises and then it's back on the stationary bike for 10 or 15-minutes, as well as a 5-minute cool-down.  my knees never bother me anymore, and i feel great!  i highly recommend the C25K program just to get you in the habit of working out if you have ever had discipline issues in the past.  i'm telling you, it works.

well, off to the studio i go to fill a couple orders that i received this week.