faking it, and faking it good

remember when i said i was going to start exploring lomography a bit more?? well, this is actually cheating since they were taken on my phone, but the vignette application that i got for my droid sure makes it easy to fake it!

the notorious mr. pink

the man

i am happy to report that my mom is doing much better since her knee replacement earlier this week.  she is finally back home as of last night, and i look forward to being able to see her soon.  it's really emotionally draining to have a loved one go through such a major surgery, and then even more so just thinking about the road to full recovery.  as i said before, she also has to have the other knee done soon so it makes that road feel just a bit longer.  i am really excited to see her get back to herself.  being in constant pain definitely has an effect on one's emotional state, and she has been suffering for quite some time now.  it was first recommended that she have both knees replaced 2 years ago, and they have obviously only gotten worse since.  that is a lot of precious time to lose being very limited to how many steps you are able to take before you are unable to take any more due to the incessant, worsening pain.  yay, mom!!  in a few short months we can actually take a walk together again!

speaking of pain, it has become increasingly harder to get up for school each day.  there are a lot of changes that have been made as far as staff goes, and i feel like we are losing all the educators that have actually taught us the most.  the ones that are left over either don't have the level of knowledge, or lack the teaching skills to provide the necessary direction.  i know that cutting and coloring hair probably doesn't seem like rocket science, but there is so much more involved than you will ever know if you have not endured cosmetology school.  at this point i believe it truly is a specialized form of torture.  seriously.  i can't believe that i am only halfway through at this point, and then when i graduate i have apprenticing and assisting to look forward to.  *ugh*  please, please let this all be worth it in the end.  i do love the fact that the beauty and fashion industry is in a persistent state of evolution.  i look forward to all the continuing education, but right now i just want the base to be built so i can move on with my life and start working again.  i actually miss having a dependable source of personal income.  addam has taken very good care of the two of us, but i need to contribute to feel secure within my own self.  i need to be making my own money to feel justified spending it on things that i want, and not just things that i need.  as silly as it may sound, i miss shopping, dammit!